Regrets

When you both get along in doing something you enjoy. Yes those are your new friends whom you met earlier in your life. I always wondered whom shall I give the priority too? They are two different worlds, which filled my life with laughter, fun and tears.

So often people judge by the number of friends they have, for me I never counted them because they are countless, am just blessed to have them all. If you find yourself at large event with all familiar faces, that’s when you smile by having them all.

"Every person is a new door to a different world."

The sad part is when you give a friend a lot more than you should. Here is the story. I once had a friend, placed here as a sister. Nothing personal, sharing well times together only. I saw something amazing in her character, which always happens when you get to know someone new.

In her senior year, I’ve been attached to her, loved staring at what she accomplishes everyday. Stayed over time with her at work. Until it was dark, it was never ok with family until I did it for her. “ Sorry mom am late, but had to stay.” That when you apologize for introducing new habits at home.

Jewelry design class, was the thing I’ve worked on that summer to kill time, and generate my inner art. More than that, I created a piece of metal, launching into a deep graduation gift that no one will understand how hard is it to accomplish this piece. I barely remember how does it look like now because, I never saw her wearing it, nor the shirt that I spend two days in the art center trying to do it. Well, the reason I played with Art because Art works emotions differently, and very often people understands the effort you’ve put into it, and as you get to know Art you will appreciate it more than gifts, specially when its her way of doing things. I wasn’t a member that time, and I needed a company of a friend. It should be obvious that the girl who stayed with me just to see me work, and have a slice of sandwich from “Happy Grocery” and soda is such a great friend who had great patient and knew me well. She was watching me pouring the soup instead of the paint into the machine before printmaking. She was cracking up from laugher and enjoying my blond moments.

"I get by with a little help from my friends." 
- John Lennon

I had faked that I know how to use this machine, just to make sure I can make the similar gift she always does for others. Yes she came and saw me that day there, and never knew am staying all day for her. My father came and picked us up that night. He was very mad that the place was dark, and no one was there except my friend and me. We all went to the car, my friend was a bit shy, and so do I.

Not a shirt, or jewelry. Nor a cake or a greeting card. All what I asked for is “ How is your mother feeling?”

Have you ever had friends who just couldn't be there for you when things turned dark?

That how I feel now, last year this time my focus was giving. Didn’t really focus on the girl sitting all day next to me, who really cared to watch me accomplish my gift no matter how much she suffered that day.

“I am a success today because I had a friend who believed in me.”

I never judged, before but unfortunately it happened once. A friend whom I spent with years of my life and someone who I always get back to.

“ I never lost her never will, but am just sorry for the years that I’ve lost with the wrong people.” Hessah Hareb